Would you kill me if I didn't post anything last 26th? Haha. Weird diba, kung kelan yung eksaktong araw, tsaka ako hindi nagpost.
Well aside from the fact that I got so busy that day, I also wasn't feeling it. Like anything special. I do know it's our day, but still, I know nothing great would come out of it.
I didn't really expect to get anything from you, let alone a 'hi'. But there it was when I opened facebook. I was even just using my phone when I saw it. Honestly, I was surprised. Expecting, not really. I was just wondering if you would even remember. But you didn't say anything, you just asked how I was. Then I replied. Then you replied. Then I did, and texted you after because I wasn't going to wait for another hour or day to ask you that one question I've been wanting to ask-- why now?
I pretended to be surprised that that day's the 26th. So I had the excuse to ask why just now did you consider talking to me, when the last time we talked was last Valentines, which was, what, more than a month ago? Speaking of which, at that time, sadya din ba yun? Because when I asked you last Saturday why you chose that day to talk to me again, you said sadya talaga yun. I wasn't able to know the reason why.
And really, I hate not knowing why. There must be a reason. May it be pleasant or not, I don't care. I deserve to know, right? What are we doing here, really? Why don't we just say things directly, and stop going around in circles?
But I do thank you for making the effort (finally, no? haha) in maintaining contact. I realized we never talk unless you talk to me first. I actually wanted to say something first, but I always chicken out and end up not saying anything at all. Don't think that I don't think about you or us, just reading my recent posts would tell you otherwise. I'm just really good in hiding it (and this blog).
So, back to "The-supposedly-march-26-post" . I actually planned on writing something, but as I've said I was too busy. I didn't even know what to write. I thought of writing the next day but we went to Caliraya and I left my thoughts in the middle of the lake.
So what am I supposed to put there? That I regret not celebrating last year's 3/26 with more romance and style? That I didn't expect that that would be our first and last? That I shouldn't have been too maarte that day and that I should've tried to be sweeter to you that day?
No.
You won't be getting any sentiments this time. Looking back, it was actually sweet, though very, very simple. The rain may have washed out all our plans, but hey, we're always good at Plan B. Hell yeah, we're kickin ass at Plan Bs. The lunch and dinner with you was great. It was in timezone that I found out that I'm so gonna beat you dead at arcade games (but yeah okay, you win in racing). And when you held my hand near your heart, it perfectly capped off the night.
But you know what I was planning on that day, had it not rained while I was in Korean class? I was planning on a sweet picnic in Ecopark. Yeah, not posh park or anything, but that was kind of private especially on weekdays. I just love it when we sit together and just be quiet, occassional talks about stuff, your usual kakupalan and my usual kasungitan/kaartehan. Then we'll eat lunch, picnic-style. Then we'd rent bikes and go biking around the place. Then we'd walk around, take some pictures to remember the day. Then I'd give you the letter. Then we'd go home and talk a bit more. Then I'd kiss you goodbye and we'll talk till we get sleepy. Ah, the ending to that day we could've had.
But well, things happen because that's what's meant to happen. And now here we are. No more quiet moments, no more sweet nothings, no more mushy pet names, no more random iloveyou's. Is this how things are meant to be? I don't know. Who does, anyway?
Would you kill me if I didn't post anything last 26th? Haha. Weird diba, kung kelan yung eksaktong araw, tsaka ako hindi nagpost.
Well aside from the fact that I got so busy that day, I also wasn't feeling it. Like anything special. I do know it's our day, but still, I know nothing great would come out of it.
I didn't really expect to get anything from you, let alone a 'hi'. But there it was when I opened facebook. I was even just using my phone when I saw it. Honestly, I was surprised. Expecting, not really. I was just wondering if you would even remember. But you didn't say anything, you just asked how I was. Then I replied. Then you replied. Then I did, and texted you after because I wasn't going to wait for another hour or day to ask you that one question I've been wanting to ask-- why now?
I pretended to be surprised that that day's the 26th. So I had the excuse to ask why just now did you consider talking to me, when the last time we talked was last Valentines, which was, what, more than a month ago? Speaking of which, at that time, sadya din ba yun? Because when I asked you last Saturday why you chose that day to talk to me again, you said sadya talaga yun. I wasn't able to know the reason why.
And really, I hate not knowing why. There must be a reason. May it be pleasant or not, I don't care. I deserve to know, right? What are we doing here, really? Why don't we just say things directly, and stop going around in circles?
But I do thank you for making the effort (finally, no? haha) in maintaining contact. I realized we never talk unless you talk to me first. I actually wanted to say something first, but I always chicken out and end up not saying anything at all. Don't think that I don't think about you or us, just reading my recent posts would tell you otherwise. I'm just really good in hiding it (and this blog).
So, back to "The-supposedly-march-26-post" . I actually planned on writing something, but as I've said I was too busy. I didn't even know what to write. I thought of writing the next day but we went to Caliraya and I left my thoughts in the middle of the lake.
So what am I supposed to put there? That I regret not celebrating last year's 3/26 with more romance and style? That I didn't expect that that would be our first and last? That I shouldn't have been too maarte that day and that I should've tried to be sweeter to you that day?
No.
You won't be getting any sentiments this time. Looking back, it was actually sweet, though very, very simple. The rain may have washed out all our plans, but hey, we're always good at Plan B. Hell yeah, we're kickin ass at Plan Bs. The lunch and dinner with you was great. It was in timezone that I found out that I'm so gonna beat you dead at arcade games (but yeah okay, you win in racing). And when you held my hand near your heart, it perfectly capped off the night.
But you know what I was planning on that day, had it not rained while I was in Korean class? I was planning on a sweet picnic in Ecopark. Yeah, not posh park or anything, but that was kind of private especially on weekdays. I just love it when we sit together and just be quiet, occassional talks about stuff, your usual kakupalan and my usual kasungitan/kaartehan. Then we'll eat lunch, picnic-style. Then we'd rent bikes and go biking around the place. Then we'd walk around, take some pictures to remember the day. Then I'd give you the letter. Then we'd go home and talk a bit more. Then I'd kiss you goodbye and we'll talk till we get sleepy. Ah, the ending to that day we could've had.
But well, things happen because that's what's meant to happen. And now here we are. No more quiet moments, no more sweet nothings, no more mushy pet names, no more random iloveyou's. Is this how things are meant to be? I don't know. Who does, anyway?
this is late
